The day after my last post, my daughter did her last drug. I had no idea until a few days later and then life unfolded over the last 30 days and she is safe, with a dear friend and still sober. I begged God to lead her away from her addiction and He literally did it the very next day. I know so well that not every prayer works like this. I know that sometimes you have to sit in that space a lot longer to see how God works, but God WILL WORK IT OUT for you in His time. I'm so happy that His time was so expedient, because we surely would have lost her if it had not been just that.
We are slowly repairing our relationship and for the first time in probably forever, my daughter can see so clearly how her actions have caused so much hurt and pain. She is taking complete responsibility and she is on such a good path and I could not be more proud of her.
Life is crazy sometimes. Now that I can stop worrying about her, I can start worrying about me and that too terrifies me a little. Because now I have to confront my own demons and do work on myself and I feel like that is going to be nearly as difficult as this journey with my daughter because nothing has ever been about me, so that gave me a pass not to deal with my own shit.
Lord, thank You for saving my baby again. Thank You for this amazing life you have given me and thank You for all of my blessings. Lord help me over the next few months to continue doing work on myself so I can finally have healthy relationships and finally heal from my past. I am afraid, but I also have faith that You will guide me towards my best life.
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