This has been the most challenging year of my life by far. Terrible things happened to me that I could never in my wildest dreams have predicted would happen. I have had struggles. I have experienced crippling depression and I have pretty much hated everyone and everything. But the worse part of all of this is that I sort of forgot to give it all to God. I went through life thinking I had control. I could fix this and as a result my ego grew. A lot. That chip I once had on my shoulder returned and I felt that I could do no wrong. This is a terrible place to be.
So I did what worked for me 10 years ago when I had similar struggles. I opened up my Norman Vincent Peale, Power of Positive Thinking book and began reading. How can a book written in the 1950's speak to me like this? I have no idea but it does. Every single time I read it, this book alters my perception of life.
This book reminds me that I am nothing without God. All of the power within the universe is mine to harness, but that can only happen through God who created it all and is the power source. This book helps me wrestle my ego to the ground and kill it and this book will be a part of my every day life forever for that very reason. I don't have control, God does. And if I want my life to change the only way to do that is with God's help.
God sent me the most amazing reminder of this today when I opened my Bible Gateway app this morning and I see this verse of the day...
Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:
John 11:25
This verse is tattooed on my leg. Today is my 50th birthday. There are 365 days in a year and over 31 THOUSAND verses in the Bible. What are the odds that this particular verse would end up on my app on my birthday? Immediately Romans 8:31 entered my mind....If God be for us who can be against us?? I feel like Jesus just said Happy Birthday Tina, now let's make the next 50 the best 50. I'm still in shock and awe as I write this. And the abundance of joy and peace and energy that I feel is insurmountable.
I don't know what the future holds for me, but I can not sit here and waste my time doing nothing when God is affirming me SO PROFOUNDLY! Today is the first day of the rest of my life and its going to be EPIC!!!
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