When I share the message of Jesus Christ I feel alive! I tell people that God puts us through tough times to pull us closer to Him, but I didn't stop to think of how much closer I feel to Him by sharing that very message. Sometimes its all about perspective.
My brother recently suffered a heart attack. He is a diabetic and prone to heart disease. He doesn't take care of himself at all so his risk is even higher. At first he was going to have stents which he had done 4 years ago, then they said it would be a bypass and then they went back to stents because his main artery is damaged and a bypass is probably not on the table for him.
I ministered to him big time. I prayed and begged God to save my baby brother the same way he had saved my daughter so many years ago. Over the course of the week this was all happening I thought of nothing but saving my brother's soul because I don't know if he is a believer and I need him to be.
After the stent procedure I expected him to wake up and be a changed man. I expected him to say that God saved him and his life was forever changed. Much to my dismay, this did not happen and I was sad and kind of mad that I wasted all those prayers on him. I feel terrible saying that. And then the Holy Spirit spoke to me again and made me realize that perhaps none of this was for my brother at all. Perhaps God was missing me and that person He was pulling closer to Him was me.
I still want to save my brother. I will never give up on that. Or him. But I realize now that I have to talk about Christ MORE OFTEN and I have to tell the world how He has changed me and how deeply in love I am with Him. You see, I could not breathe without worshipping my King. I couldn't live a moment in that space now that I walk with Christ. I would rather die. And I don't share that enough.
My blog is a place for sinners to go to find solace in Christ. To find their space with Christ so I have to always be real and say to you that I sin daily. But God still loves me. I endeavor to be a better Christian daily, but I fall short and that's ok because God has already given me grace and died for my sins. That doesn't mean I have a free pass. It just means that I spite my Maker when I sin and I don't want to do that.
No matter what your walk looks like today, I would encourage you to just go deeper and to find Christ and worship more deeply. Right now. Where ever you are just tell God you love Him and thank Him for giving you this glorious day to be alive! If you have never done that before don't be afraid. God is accessible to all of us whether we go to church or not. We are all sinners. No one is better than you. And no one can dictate what your walk with Christ looks like. It is your path. Your journey. So take it!!!
Lord today I just want to thank you for helping me minister to my brother and giving me those words that I felt he needed to hear at the very moment he needed to hear them. And thank You for pulling me closer to You this week and reminding me how it feels to tell others about the impact You have had in my life! Lord help me be a better Christian and a better servant today and every day. In your precious son's name....amen!
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