Give And It Will Be Given To You

Sometimes I look back at what I write and I am inspired. Other times I am embarrassed. I get caught up in the moment sometimes and I write from a completely emotional in-the-moment place. It happens.

Recently in a moment of weakness I wrote about an old love that had returned to my life who is now no longer in my life. It is painful in some respects to read what I wrote about him and the hope I had for our relationship. But as time went on it became glaringly obvious that our relationship was never going to work out and reading about how I felt in that moment will help me remember what happened. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing.

I am an extremely giving person. I enjoy giving. I love to do things that no one expects like grossly over-tipping a waiter or waitress. Just thinking about the look on their face when they see the tip amount brings me joy! I know that sounds crazy, but its true. I love picking up the check or treating people to a meal that they expected to have to pay for themselves. That too brings me a lot of joy.

I love to buy people things that they don't expect or send flowers or throw them a huge birthday party! I am a giver. So it takes me a while to realize when someone is taking advantage of me because it is in my nature to give. I give as part of my tithe. I give because I'm introverted and its how I show love to people that I can't always say "I Love You" to.

I give knowing I will get nothing in return, because people are selfish. I know this and I'm OK with it, but there is a fine line between giving and allowing someone to take advantage of you repeatedly and nothing hurts me more than being taking advantage of repeatedly. I may never tell the person that I am upset or hurt by it, but I will silently pull away from that person and never trust them again. I never said I was perfect! :0)

In closing let me say that I don't regret being a giver and I won't stop, no matter how many people take advantage of me because I love to make people smile. I love to surprise people. And I feel led to give!

Luke 6:38 says:
"Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."