Walking With Jesus

Today is not the best day I've ever had. No sleep last night makes me tired and weepy. I went for a walk and it was like going to church. The Lord always ministers to me when I'm listening to music and suddenly the weight of the world is lifted off my shoulders and I don't feel all alone. I feel strongly that Jesus was walking with me, so I was sure to walk close to the edge of the sidewalk so I could give Him room.

It is not easy caring for an elderly person. To watch someone you love so much decline so quickly is really rough. I think of all the times she was there for me and my siblings, taking us to the doctor and caring for us and worrying over us; driving us all over the state for every activity we were in and supporting us unconditionally. 

I'm sad that she didn't have Jesus to help her actually. If she had, not only would our lives all be different, but hers would have been drastically different as well. But someone was helping her because her and dad managed to raise 4 pretty amazing kids who may not all be rock stars, but we aren't serial murderers either so they did something right. And to have the lack of parenting they had and raise 4 somewhat normal kids tells me that someone was watching out for them and I can only assume it was Jesus. God. Lord. What ever you want to call Him.

God was there with my parents every step of the way whether they went to church or not, or openly proclaimed their faith or not. He still loved them and all of us, unconditionally. The same way my parents did me and I do with my girls and my grandbabies.

So God has been there all along. I just never noticed Him and that's really sad. Its like a complete stranger leaving you a big pouch of money on your doorstep and you just pick it up and deposit it and use it and never thank Him for it. That money helps you care for your family and make your life easier and you never once say thank you, but He keeps giving it to you. And you keep taking it.

Lord please forgive me for all those times I never thanked you for being there for me and picking up the pieces and making my life easier! And thank you for walking with me today!