Just Save Me Lord

Today I'm thankful to have a God that is accessible to me no matter where I am. I can worship in my truck or at my desk or anywhere I want to really and I try to do so daily. I take a moment or two to thank God for loving me so much even though I know I don't deserve it. I worship through the songs I hear or the feelings I get and I just want to share with everyone how simple it is to just be still and worship.... right now.....where ever you are.

It took me a long time to get here to be quite honest. For years I thought my sins were just too big and I lacked the character necessary to come to the Lord and just be. I was too ashamed to have a real relationship with Christ. I felt unworthy and so far from grace even though I went to church every sunday and tried to live my life the right way. I felt the sins of my past were just unforgivable. But then God showed up big time for me at a time when I was being pummeled by my enemies. He rescued me from that and it suddenly hit me, YOU ARE FORGIVEN. I realized that God would not save someone He didn't love and I accepted that my sins were forgiven and maybe that's the day I was truly saved because all I know is that I felt a different kind of freedom after that day. Freedom from the sins and the chains that bound me to them. I guess that's why I love the song "Redeemed" so much by  Big Daddy Weave.

After that day I found a God that was so much bigger than I had ever imagined who loved me so much deeper than I ever realized. I guess that's why I get so upset when I think that people are being exploited in Church sometimes. I think a lot of churches manipulate instead of save and that just seems wrong to me and that's why I started this blog. I want to write about my experiences and how the Lord touches me every single day whether I'm in church or not. I want people to understand that its not about the Church, its about Jesus and coming to Him with a humble heart and saying ... just save me Lord. Save me from this prison I am living in because of my own foolish actions and then accepting that you are forgiven. I promise you will see the world so much more differently when you let go of those old sins like I did!

Let me just say in closing that I'm not against church or going to church. I just think you need to work on your relationship with Christ a lot more than your relationship with your church and then you can see the truth and you can really revel in the magnificense of God....independent from the church. I think if you do that you will be a better person for yourself, your family AND your church. Salvation isn't just about going to church on Sunday and then walking out and forgetting who your savior is the rest of the week. I'm sorry if you think that and I'm truly sorry if you go to church every Sunday and don't know that. Because your Church is manipulating you into thinking that is ok and its not. Seek the Lord out. Have a conversation with Him. Tell Him you are sorry for your sins and allow Him to walk through your life with you and I promise it might be a little scary at first, but then and ONLY then will you be saved.