It's that time of year again, when I start to look inward. This year has been another rough year for me, but also a really good year at the same time. My oldest daughter is sober. My youngest daughter is thriving at work and minus a 200 pound weight off her shoulders.
This year broke me down so badly that I fell into the arms of Christ. Literally fell. It reminded me that I can not live this life without being close to my Savior. I just can't do it. And I never would have survived without Jesus. Truly. I'm ready for the next chapter. I want to live the rest of my life full of pure joy.
I want to remind myself that I will fall again. I will falter again, but God waits for me every single time and I don't deservce His grace, but I sure am thankful for it.
I want to reinvent myself every single day. I want to thrive, not just survive. My people are good and now it's time for me to be good. I am in a much better place than I started out this year and for that too I am thankful.
This song speaks to me:
To the too far gone
You think you don’t deserve
To ever hear the words
Child, welcome back home
All the pain that you’re holding
All the shame that you hide
You think you don’t deserve
To ever hear the words
Child, you’re still mine
Come as you are
Not as you should be
Come to the table
Taste and see
There is a love that won’t let go
Just look at the cross and you will know
No matter how much you messed up
You are still forgivable
If there is a grace beyond compare
To even the ones who nailed Him there
Then even your guilt and shame
Your worst mistakes can be restored
You are still forgivable
You are still forgivable
