I have always been a believer, but I haven't always been faithful. Around the year 2001 to 2003 I was lost. I was dating a man who I thought I would be with forever, but something was just off. And then I was laid off from a job, then another job and my teenage daughter was more than a handful. Life for me was not good. My boyfriend at the time made the comment to me that I seemed "faithless". This really destroyed me to hear because I definitely believed in God. It would take many many years for me to understand that he was right.
Belief and faith are two completely different things. You can believe in God all day long, but not truly believe that He can save you. This is where faith comes in. Faith is knowing that God will save you. Not just today, but every single second of every day of your life. When you are faithless you worry more. You don't trust God. You try to fix everything on your own. You don't pray. You don't convene with your savior. I know this because that is what I did. My ego was bigger than God and my faith was non-existent.
If I had not been told I was faithless I would never have tried to go deeper and get to know God more, so I am thankful for that moment. Through the years I have really tried to kill my ego and grow my faith. Writing helps me a lot. Listening to Christian music is how God speaks to me the most. I love to be near people who are faithful and hearing about their journeys. I love to read books about Christ from all sorts of different authors and I love reading the Bible.
I'm not perfect and there are days or weeks or months that I will still falter, but my faith NEVER falters. I know that even when I sin God is still here trying to save me. His love for me is overpowering and I know the reason I feel His love so strongly is because of my faith. Lord how I love you back!
I wrote the post below on Facebook 4 years ago today. Its kind of ironic that I began writing this blog entry today regarding faith, and then this popped up in my feed. Actually its not ironic at all, its a God thing! It's like God was saying hey remember ME???? Yes God, I remember you and I love you SO SO MUCH!!!!!!
