Looking back on some of my older posts today reminds me of what a strong presence the Lord has in my life on a daily basis. I might have one or two days of menopause-induced hysteria, but I will always come back to Jesus and feel grounded and thank Him for loving me so much.
Right now I'm going through one of the most difficult things I have ever experienced in my life. I'm trying to find the lesson that this is teaching me, but I'm not sure I have those answers yet. When I think about the outcome of my troubles I no longer worry because I feel God fixing things. I know that sounds strange, but I feel Him moving through that space where my troubles lie and sort of putting all the pieces in place so that I will be ok. That thought brings me peace. With Him I am never alone. God always has my back. But it took me so long to get here.
I am not perfect. I am broken. I am a sinner. I have so many things I need to work on, but I need to remind myself that sometimes I just need to sit alone and soak in God's presence like a sponge. I need Him in my life, but I often get so absorbed with working and being successful at work and taking care of everyone in my life that I forget about what feeds my own soul and that is my communion with God. Lord please forgive me for this. Please forgive me for not connecting with you the way I should.
Sometimes my life just don't make sense at all.....
Its the beginning to a song that came on today that reminded me that sometimes my life doesn't make sense either. I don't have all the answers and I can't predict the future. All I can do is have faith. The faith of a mustard seed is all I need and let me tell you my faith is way bigger than that, so I will wait for the Lord to fix my troubles and to guide me toward the path He has laid out ahead of me.
My message today is this; sometimes we mess up big time in life. We fall. We falter and we sin, but that sin does not define us or diminish the love God has for us. So pick yourself up and dust yourself off and thank God for giving you another day to breath and live and learn. And remind yourself that 5 years from now none of your troubles of this day will even be remembered, but what will be remembered is God's love.
